ENGAGEMENT

"Am getting engaged tomorrow"

There are lotsa things about this affair that am not not able to come to terms with...

Am getting engaged and no one is interested in knowing what i want
To force sumthing that you do no believe in and which does not interest you makes you very unhappy
and am very unhappy...
I dont have my brother here with me
I miss him
I did not want to get engaged
am getting engaged
I do not want to marry
I wonder what will happen...

I look at whats happening to me with a sense of detachment
like my soul has left me and is looking down on me

Am depressed
People ask me if am thrilled
what do i tell them?

I tell them am getting engaged...