A brush with the past

Not all memories are good.
You want to forget some and you want to cherish some.
Flashbacks atleast for me are painful and as much as one tries to forget and move on, it jus stays.
There have been so many people ive unjustly wronged, hated, been indifferent to...
i think of it at times. Am ashamed. I apologise. I feel better.

As much as i hate to revisit my past, i do so at times, to see if ive changed over the years, if ive become any better... Selfish me...

All the introspection and the subsequent guilt happens when am totally jobless. So i tell myself go do something.and am off...

Sometimes its just much nicer being a pain than being nice....