Nithya's words of wisdom(eheheheh)

a blog a year

2011-06-22T18:06:00.000-07:00

damn you facebook!!!!

One of life's many injustices is that we choose of

2010-03-03T13:19:00.000-08:00

our own freewill to stay with people who keep hurting us. we cry, we curse, we try but in the end we stay...
is this coz we fear what lies outside...out of this so called comfort zone that we have created for ourselves?
or do we find joy in self-pity?

your head brims with so may ideas and yet when you find the time and

2010-02-15T13:55:00.000-08:00

and an internet connection the mind goes blank and you wonder if you are plain stupid or if it is age thats catching up with you....whatever it is....i get to blog after so many days....and i realize that i cant come up with anything.....

Everybody Tells Me Everything

2010-01-12T16:04:00.000-08:00

I find it very difficult to enthuse
Over the current news.
Just when you think that at least the outlook is so black that it can grow no blacker, it worsens,
And that is why I do not like the news, because there has never been an era when so many things were going so right for so many of the wrong persons.
ogden nash

a poem a day makes nithya happy....

been four months....bolivia...te amo....

2010-01-12T16:00:00.000-08:00

four months ina foreign land....yipeeee....
having fun and learning a lot...and keep wondering why the fuck i didnt do this much earlier in my life....happy to be back blogging....thought i would never get to it...

back i think.....

2009-08-22T21:20:00.000-07:00

So many things happening to me in rapid succession that my mind refuses to cope up. i wonder how anyone can feel sad, happy n guilty at the same time...

Its raining cameras

2009-07-20T21:05:00.000-07:00

Could i be any happier?

First the canon DSLR
and now the Yashica

M sooooooo happpy....

My recent application for a job i knew i had no chance of getting....

2009-07-15T10:17:00.000-07:00

hello!

Let me start this application by saying that i do not particularly have much training , practically no experience and absolutely no qualification to apply for whatever posts you had called for but reading your advertisement on the paper I realised that i do fit some of the qualifications...applying now for your Ad dated 12/7 helps me clear the first criteria me thinks. Fussy?Moody? Your welcome to have a chat with my familyand the numerous people who are acquainted with me...It's obvious am crazy too .Totally crazy to be typing this mail to you.

Now the most important part. As much as i try to be modest, i just cant help telling you that i am hopelessly creative... My test papers in school n college stand testimony to that. The fact that am paranoid n schizophrenic helps a lot too. I have this constant friend to chat n debate with.have to say it does help one a lot-CREATIVELY i mean.

I am not too sure if you'd be interested in the degrees i have accumulated over the years...but if you are interested do mail me...

Take care and have a nice day.....

Love

Nithya

Why cant people be what they claim to be?

2009-07-15T09:42:00.000-07:00

Ive always noticed that people who claim their undying love for you are the ones who you cannot trust to do the smallest of things that doesnt warrant too much love. It is funny to listen to them talking and exagerating. The trick is pretend to belive and have a good laugh about it later.
The self proclaimed "saints" are the most disappointing....

toll gates, exorbitant rates, lotsa anger and much more....

2009-07-15T09:30:00.000-07:00

I drive down the ECR pretty often and everytime i take the road i pay a toll of Rs 85 Recently i went to yealgiri where i passed three toll plazas and ended up paying Rs 145 and at each toll i was told that the pass that they give would do good for the whole distance... I was cheated and i dont even know if i can complain against this...
and then happens today, i take the OMR and end up paying Rs 30. What was painful was the fact that i hardly did 50 mts beyond the toll.

We pay road tax, vehicle tax and a plethora of other taxes...and we still pay to use these roads. As always private public partnership always works to the favor of the private company. The loser is always the tax payer who ends up paying toll for 15 odd years till the next company comes up and relays the road.
The government comes up with these skewed policies and theres pretty much nothing we can do about it. Sad.
I curse, make faces, take my own time paying...small useless protests against something i cannot change.

A brush with the past

2009-07-08T21:31:00.000-07:00

Not all memories are good.
You want to forget some and you want to cherish some.
Flashbacks atleast for me are painful and as much as one tries to forget and move on, it jus stays.
There have been so many people ive unjustly wronged, hated, been indifferent to...
i think of it at times. Am ashamed. I apologise. I feel better.

As much as i hate to revisit my past, i do so at times, to see if ive changed over the years, if ive become any better... Selfish me...

All the introspection and the subsequent guilt happens when am totally jobless. So i tell myself go do something.and am off...

Sometimes its just much nicer being a pain than being nice....

am a girl+guy and am a closet gay

2009-07-04T02:50:00.000-07:00

From CHITHRA PAULINE (coz I can't be bothered with adding this guy+girl as a friend and hence am unable to comment directly from my account)..I don't see the need for u to get abusive Nithya. For you to be so passionate about it, either you are his+her mouth-piece or you must be gay yourself. If you are gay, you really shouldn't be ashamed of it now because it's the 21st century!
the above comment was in reply to my rather emotional outburst on facebook. i called this homophobic a sanctimonious $%*&$$ and this is what i get.

Robin Stephen at 6:34pm July 3
If it hadn't pricked you so much, you would had at least not have deleted my sermons. I am glad for it.
I wont say any more, But, At least read the bible and check if you have evolved or dissolved?
And remember, I am not a preacher, just a trying brother :)

Mal 3:5 And I will come near you for judgment; I will be a swift witness Against sorcerers, Against adulterers, Against perjurers, .... Because they do not fear Me," Says the LORD of hosts.

Rom 2:5 But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of God's wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed.

It may sound harsh, but its my duty to warn you and your friends... Sorry!!

No laws are gonna help unless people change...

Hectic two weeks

2009-07-02T22:12:00.000-07:00

been travelling a lot. Pondy, nagercoil, Pondy, cheyyar, yelagiri, vaniyambadi...HECTIC.

Section 377 amended, overthrown

2009-07-02T21:18:00.000-07:00

The Delhi high court has passed a historic judgement legalising homosexulaity in the country.
One wonders why it took so long. How can anyone be judged? and on what basis? It is so unfair and cruel to discriminate another person coz of our percieved "DIFFERENCE" n indoctrination.

To hell with the religious nuts, the "moralists"... unnatural is what they claim it to be. I do not really know who came up with this concept. Homophobia is hypocrisy at its best. Especially in India.

Will this ruling help people get out of the closet?
i dont think so. We are the culturally superior things which gives us a liscence to hate.

HATE ON.

I am happy with the ruling.
And i hope we can stop moralizing n judging.
I wish. I wish a lot....

Trapped....

2009-06-06T11:21:00.001-07:00

DMK-congress win

2009-05-18T23:31:00.000-07:00

prabakaran is dead

wonder what'll happen to the separate ealam issue?

election time again.....

2009-05-08T22:02:00.001-07:00

Election time and i have to admit i am secretly hoping someone would give me money or something to vote for them....ehehehehe. Although my secret hopes wont materialise it is true that people get paid to vote. If it isnt money, its biriyani , sarayam or kudam.
and there's this spate of freebies offered by the government.sometimes i wonder if i live in the same state as others for i have got nothing. no color tv, no 1 kilo rice for 2 rupees. no 2 acres of land... talking about rice i heard it isnt of good quality and where do i hear about this? from a annachi(thats how these palasaraku kadai aka general provision store owners are called here). so annachi was busy in the ration shop complaining about how the 2 rupees rice that the government employee in the ration shop "illegally" sold him was bad and how he couldnt sell it in his shop.
The whole transaction and the conversation happens out in the open, they dint seem to care if anyone heard them, neither did i bother to react....and i stood there not reacting when a deserving poor old woman was sent away from the shop claiming no goods. sad.
As for the TV, theres this government TV sitting in my in laws house gathering dust. dint matter to anyone that we already own two television sets.

i def need to mention kalignar's fast here. our CM wakes up one day realising he hasnt done enough for the tamilians in Srilanka (read the isue has really hoted up and is threatening to be a major election issue in the state, and his ground is shaky with amma proclaiming separate ealam as a solution). He decides to go on a fast till death on a whim. well he gets his wish the vehicles stop plying on the beach road for a few hrs, there are cops n cameras everywhere good publicity, after he makes sure alll the TV stations havee covered this stunt, he tells us all theat Sri Lanks has offered to stop firing at the NFZ (its another matter that its false news from the Sl and the indian govt)

Funny how every party and every politician goes around claiming kinship and promosing help. sucks.

as much as i want to write the heat is killing me and the AC sucks up all the moisture left in me( wonder if this really happens or if my imagination is at work here)

tired, will continue on this later....

1000 boys, 200 teams, 200 pitches ,

2009-04-26T00:53:00.000-07:00

100 joggers, 200 people on their morning walk, 300 odd onlookers, 1000 odd vehicles, and one me driving through this madness

This is the Marina beach on a typical Sunday morning...

lack of sleep, tired, no originality

2009-04-20T14:23:00.000-07:00

Every church is a stone on the grave of a god-man: it does not want him to rise up again under any circumstances.

Friedrich Nietzsche

came across this while browsing the net staying up coz i cudnt sleep...sad...hungry...sleepless...

2009-04-20T14:19:00.000-07:00

Back in the days when men were hunters and chest beaters and women spent their whole lives worrying about pregnancy or dying in childbirth, they often had to be taken against their will. Men complained that women were cold, unresponsive, frigid. They wanted their women wanton. They wanted their women wild. Now women were finally learning to be wanton and wild -- and what happened? The men wilted.

Erica Jong
1942-, American Author
more famous quotes

a night ride in the city.....

2009-04-03T00:37:00.000-07:00

It wasnt late

but was late to be going around the city on a bike and it was one of those times when antennas sprout out of your skull , you are gripped by paranoia and look at every man on the street as a potential rapist, thief, murderer, molester....it doesnt help you much when you have to ride thru certain pockets of the city with a "reputation".

its strange how we have pockets in the city. the enclaves which serve as a standard for safety and its obvious.

i sound like an uptight bourgeois when i claim that i feel safe in certin pockets. pockets with upscale stores, fashoinable people...

am snobbish when my eyes dart around, my walk quickens, and my fingers tighten around my purse while passing thru these "other pockets"...

i wonder if this is a feminine instinct, never bothered to ask a guy if he had these issues...well gender does change your perspectives, also provides you with a cetain degree of safety i guess...(in my defense i'd like to say that ive never come across lewd remarks, staring or dirty propositions when a guy walks alone...(day or night)

this instinct thing is so confusing...is it an instinct? or is it a result of the programming all these years...?

this post is a result of

the harrowing n slightly unnerving pillion ride with philly last night

(the harrowing n unnerivng could also be largely attributed to phillys stunts on the bike....ur butt hanging off the bike at every curve n speed breakers can be very funny if it wasnt so embarassing....)

the number of drunken men wanting to fight at the least provocation on the streets

( the city is alive in the nights with men crowding around the illegal bars, the idli n parrota kadai's and on the road)

My heightened sense of paranoia-i still cant decide if i was right being scared in specific loactions

back!

2009-04-03T00:21:00.000-07:00

well am back

been ages since i blogged. not know why

hope to blog more often....

keep thinking of what i should blog about and i go blank

rminds me of the time i took a test to get into doctoral studies....

i went blank

so completely blank that it took me hrs to write a page not to mention the completely humuliating interview that followed.

i seem to have no time these days, with the wedding, the shifting between homes, the fitting in....

n now the travel plans.....

i pray to god everyday it works out this time.....

as much as i hate my blog to sound like my personal diary, this is pretty much what i can come up with now.....

dumb me....

what's chidambaram gonna do?

2008-11-09T03:59:00.000-08:00

what he going to do? and whats manmohan gonna do?

the very capitalist, neoliberalist policies that they have been vociferously advocating for has gone bust...
india has remained a lil insulated thanks to the socialist policies of nehru and indira gandhi....

how long can our nationalized institutions survive with this continuous capitalist onslaught orchestrated by manmohan, chidambaram and co....
why do we insist of following a failed policy?

US has decided to use hte taxpayers money to bail out the financial institutions
the very financial institutions which owing to their greed screwed the tax payers...
wont be long for india to do the same....

i sincerely do hope that we do something that wouldnt make our stock markets so vulnerable....
i hope the ambanis wouldnt enjoy so much patronage over the coming years...
i hope corporates wouldnt control everything...

i hope for a better future for all of us especially for the ones who've been affected....

obama wins and how....

2008-11-09T03:39:00.000-08:00

Obama is the next US president. the latest fad among my friends is to ask one another as to why we Indians should get excited over Obama becoming the President or why and how it matters to us

Apart from the fact that the decisions made by the US president affects not only his country but a host of others, it should matter to us because any decision that the US makes in our neighboring countries affects us in many ways...
bomb afghanistan and the terrorists go to pakistan, pressurise pakistan or jus leave them alone and the terrorists move into our country
how much truth is in this i know not, but i do know, lotta politicians here survive here thanks to the terrorist panic...
talking of muslim terrorists, how conviniently everyone fails to talk about our RSS, VHP and BAjrang dal...
how convinient and how easy it is to blame...

Our government mostly favors a republican government in the US..
for example
while clinton issued sanctions on us for our nuclear test, bush goes out of his way to make us sign the nuclear deal
theres widespread fear that Obama might bring about policies that might affect the outsourcing industry. am not an expert but i feel this is something that Obama can undo immediately and that america in a way needs outsourcing....
Obama won i think because of Bush's incompetent leadership, his muddled up policies, stupidity and arrogance. most importantly the ill conceived, ill advised catastrophic war in Iraq and afghanistan. it still surprises me how a nation can endorse this war and still elect him again...
Bush a war monger of the extreme right reminds me of our very own modi. both won their second terms based on the fear and the hatred instilled in the majority gainst the minority...

both have resulted in more bomb blasts, insecurity and more hatred...
bush is gone...obama is here... we are glad obama is here
why?
he's the first african american- does this mean america has changed? that it is actually a melting pot accepting everyone?
we are happy coz we know he's intelligent
we are happy coz we know he participated in antiwar rallies

we hope he'd do somehting different...
bring about the cange he passionately talked abpout and promised...

Am happy OBAMA won...

wasting my time

2008-10-30T22:50:00.000-07:00

been ages since i stepped into my classroom.
work on my thesis has slowed down...
and i have only a year to submit it...
am very uncomfortable with this feeling of uncertainty... would like to pop out of it...

vaiko, kanappan, seeman arrested on charges of sedition

2008-10-25T20:22:00.000-07:00

its true that in an ideal world nation states do not interfere in the sovereignty of others. but we do not live in an ideal world. we sadly live in a world dominated by power politics. states are at war constantly in a bid for supremacy. although the nature of warfare has changed over the years, war remains a constant.
India is pretty strong in the south Asian region. has interfered in the affairs of the countries around, Pakistan( 1971), Nepal, the Kashmir kingdom, Sri lanka...
It liberated East Pakistan thus bringing Bangladesh into existence, sent IPKF to Sri Lanka and now is deliberating what to do about the current situation in SL.
Now that we take for granted powerful nations interfere , we ask ourselves
is it right?
is it ethical?
now that it happens, should India take an active role in bringing an end to the crisis?
or let the Lankan government do what it thinks is best?
Would it be wrong if it did?
well i know the post isnt exactly in line with the title... but...
do we support vaiko, seeman and people like him?
do we remain passive?
do we turn a blind eye to the ethnic cleansing?
well if we do support the tamils in Sri Lanks who are we supporting?
The muslim tamils?
The early settlers who remain unaffected ?
The plantation workers?
The stateless people?
The LTTE who are fighting for the tamil cause?

to many questions and no answers...

and finally why has the indian state not able to come up with a clear solution or a foreign policy when it comes to SL inspite of the state governments being part of the centre for all these years?

Am in facebook

2008-10-25T02:26:00.000-07:00

wasted few hours

thank you naveen

2008-10-24T00:38:00.000-07:00

roy sends me this link for a puzzle/game?
and am stuck in the same level for hours
am i dumb
or am i too good to play it?

anyways thank you naveen roy

whats happening in Sri lanka?

2008-10-24T00:35:00.001-07:00

what will happen?

varungala mudalvar, engal aasan, egal annan, captain avargal varaar varaar varaar....

2008-10-23T22:44:00.000-07:00

Vijaykanth seems to be everywhere...
smiling, waving, blessing, posing...
chennai was a sea of yellow last sunday thanks to captain's pothu kootam

was quite surprised and taken aback by the number of supporters who had turned up
and where the hell did he get the money
for all the posters and banners that were erected throughout the city
and the t shirts?

if he does become CM, he'll be in line with TN tradition.
he does have the necessary qualifications.
he's an actor, he's not a tamilian..., and he rarely forgets to mention MGR
importantly he blasts the other politicians. seems to me politicians are better off talking ill of their ilk wen it comes to winning elections than talk about their achievements

I have nothing against him, if mGR, karnanidhi and jayalalitha can be CM's y not him
and i dont understand this fixation for actors n outsiders

vaalgha tamil, valrgha emathu kolghai

a continuation of my previous blog

2008-10-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

soon after am done bashing men, i hop onto a bus and as much as i tried to ignore it, i was forced to watch/listen to a crappy movie."chandramukhi".

I happen to be someone who watches any movie. language, content, acting -nothing is a barrier. If this movie wanted me to tear off my hair and break the TV, one can imagine the nature of the movie. This movie reinforced whatever i had written about in the morning.
It was insulting to women, a classic 'taming of the shrew'(it seems to be an integral part in all of rajni's movies. He "tames'(read insult her, abuse her, portray her as a slut) the heroine who isn't interested in him, who is independent and makes her "realize her mistakes".
F****** stereotypes.
the fact that rajni enjoys superstar status in the state is testament to the fact that everyone enjoys what they see. A reflection of popular culture, a reflection how men work(most men)
The writer, director, actor, audience...everyone is to blame. stupid stunted morons for coming up with this crap and endorsing it.
movie was a great hit i hear.
I can go on ranting about the movie, but it makes me wanna puke even thinking about it.

MEN ARE JERKS

2008-10-02T18:43:00.000-07:00

Men can be such jerks.chauvinistic, opinionated, proud, egotist, sexist pigs who cannot stand to hear a murmur of dissent.
No wonder then that God is a HE d EVE the harbinger of all troubles....

BAN on smoking in public spaces from today.

2008-10-02T07:03:00.000-07:00

BAN. Good for non smokers and people like me who suffer the smoke inside the buses, at the bus stops, at hotels , at the beach...the list goes on...
but is it even right to ban smoking?
Is it not an infringement on our rights?
not that smoking is one of the fundamental rights... but still..can the state tell us what to do?
Is it good? passive smoking is harmful, we injure ourselves and others. do we have a right to do that?
hmnn... this ban has left me confused. should i support it and welcome it or sit scared knowing more bans are to follow...

India-A Soft State? A Biased State?

2008-10-02T06:18:00.000-07:00

Every time there is a bomb blast(its kinda become a weekly occurrence these days in the country), this debate crops up in all the news magazines and news channels. heated arguments, blame game, mud slinging- we see it all.
bomb blasts in a state, religious pogroms in another.
the state has to come up with something. there is an encounter, 2 Muslims and a cop die. we do not know for sure if they were terrorists.It's all muddled up. The cop-may his soul rest in peace, an unwarranted death.(why wasn't he wearing a bullet proof vest?or did i get it wrong?).
Government shows its tough on terrorism.
The religious pogrom.Hundreds die, Thousands live in mortal fear of their lives, churches vandalized. The perpetrators go around claiming responsibility, threaten future attacks, say no to forcible conversions they say, u get back your life if u renounce your faith and join us-they say.
The state is helpless, yes there is a police shootout, we really do not know who died. People who started it,? the victims? we will never know.
Guess the only thing that the state is good at is cover ups.
India has trouble in the North-east. India has trouble in the Hindi belt. India has trouble in the east. There is trouble in down south. has had it since independence. Haven't seen a solution so far. Does it mean we are a failed state?
The Nuclear deal, the nuclear test and the economic growth? helped us anyway.?
There are a thousand questions and no answers.
will our country ever be rid of caste politics? regional politics? dynastic policies? If it were free of it will we have peace? Is it the politics thats corrupting us or is it just us? ignorant , indifferent us.

either oblivious to the tragedy or just apathetic.
I write about it and thats pretty much the only thing i do.
You see these things happen in such frequencies that it no longer affects you. You are a passive observer leading your life. ashamed? i feel no shame.Ive become thick skinned.
lulled into complacency by the safe environ around me.

The Seeker by The who

2008-09-30T22:44:00.000-07:00

I've looked under chairs
I've looked under tables
I've tried to find the key
To fifty million fables

chorus:
They call me The Seeker
I've been searching low and high
I won't get to get what I'm after
Till the day I die

I asked Bobby Dylan
I asked The Beatles
I asked Timothy Leary
But he couldn't help me either

chorus

People tend to hate me
'Cause I never smile
As I ransack their homes
They want to shake my hand

Focusing on nowhere
Investigating miles
I'm a seeker
I'm a really desperate man

I won't get to get what I'm after
Till the day I die

I learned how to raise my voice in anger
Yeah, but look at my face, ain't this a smile?
I'm happy when life's good
And when it's bad I cry
I've got values but I don't know how or why

I'm looking for me
You're looking for you
We're looking in at each other
And we don't know what to do

so much appening around me and i have nothing to blog about

2008-09-23T06:53:00.000-07:00

few things in life are more painful than being dependant.....

2008-07-26T11:30:00.000-07:00

cursed n Dependant...........

bomb blasts in bangalore

2008-07-25T03:53:00.000-07:00

there haas been a series of bomb blasts in Bangalore... with 1 dead and 5 injures it's been low intensity though thats not reason to cheer.
it's closer to home this time after the blasts in Hyderabad....

co clues of the perpetrator's have emerged so far....

Nadal wins winbledon

2008-07-09T22:46:00.000-07:00

yoooooohoooooooo

what was final... and thank god Wimbledon does not have tie breakers in the last set. am sure nadal would have lost then. I was rooting for nadal to win and in the process i went to the extent of shouting expletives at federer in the middle of the night...
but i felt so bad after he lost. it was his chance to create a new record and break borg's previous record. Don't think he's got a shot at it now...

Venus won it too.. although i like Serena I'd be happy if either one wins...

Back home Left withdrew its support for the government and not very surprisingly Sp aligned itself with the Congress.
In TN Ramadoss has been finally kicked out.
although it looked like he was gonna withdraw support. pity anbumani though.
Dynasty politics has never had it so good in the state till now.
We have Kanimozhi going to the centre
Stalin i think being groomed for the Cm's post
Azhagiri all set to take over some important post down south
His daughter getting more print n space in the media, a maiden much hyped political speech in the kadalur magalir manadu...
His son making noises...
the marans trying their best to stay afloat... i wonder if theyd start a new party or join amma
or prove that blood is thicker than water( money?)
As for me
am still in the painting phase...

am bak and hope to blog more often...

2008-07-05T11:53:00.000-07:00

am blogging now more to brag about myself than writing about things that depress me.

well... the bragging first. VTI -Victoria Technical Institute has accepted my paintings. Whether they'd successfully sell them is another thing that am not worried about.at least for now.

well to the things that depress me

Binayak Sen
We live in a democratic country which arrests good Samaritans coz they dare to point out the atrocities of the government- a government for the people, by the people , of the people...

Medha patkar
Ashish nandy- he came close to getting arrested and got saved only after the SC intervened

I wonder how many times the Sc has to involve itself in these frivolous cases...
am glad sanity prevails at least in one quarter

and numerous other people who i haven't heard of

the list goes on...

on to the next thing before my ramblings make me forget the other things that depress me

i recently read an article in a tamil magazine which said that the catholic church in tamilnadu is planning to make a movie on St . thomas at a cost of 100 crores. If that isnt painful enough they are planning to rope in rajni kanth for the role of tiruvalluvar...
insane tragic behavior....wonder if they coudnt come up with a more decent way to squander money...

also wonder if theyd rope in nayanthara to play vasuki.... tiruvalluvar's sexy wife.....

damn them

katchatheevu

another thing that irritates n saddens me
week after week i keep hearing of Tamil fishermen being shot or being captured...
and the state government and the central government
do pretty much noting except probably offer a much delayed prefunctionary condemnation.
dont understand how stupid the government was i the first place to have let go of that piece of barren land that causes so many deaths...

Sri lankan tamil refugees in and outside srilanka.

well... fianlly atleast for now before my head hits the keyboard

the cover story in a magazine about the possible breakup and domestic issues of a singing couple... to see it not on a tabloid but on the cover of a magazine which is political in its content....
sad days.....

OFF i goooooooo

temparature soaring, me dying...

2008-05-17T04:52:00.001-07:00

Madras aka Chennai is a cauldron now. temperatures hovering around 42+ most days....
am dying...
This from a person who spends most of her day indoors ...

ENGAGEMENT

2008-05-09T02:49:00.000-07:00

"Am getting engaged tomorrow"

There are lotsa things about this affair that am not not able to come to terms with...

Am getting engaged and no one is interested in knowing what i want
To force sumthing that you do no believe in and which does not interest you makes you very unhappy
and am very unhappy...
I dont have my brother here with me
I miss him
I did not want to get engaged
am getting engaged
I do not want to marry
I wonder what will happen...

I look at whats happening to me with a sense of detachment
like my soul has left me and is looking down on me

Am depressed
People ask me if am thrilled
what do i tell them?

I tell them am getting engaged...

my poster

2008-04-26T10:04:00.000-07:00

I MISS U AACHI

2008-04-26T10:02:00.000-07:00

U were the greatest...

Love

Nithya

Gandhi and abolition of War

2008-04-10T07:27:00.000-07:00

I cant recall the When, Why and How? but i have never been a great fan of Gandhi. and i always thought the prefix 'mahatma' was unwarranted. Now that i have finally finished reading his autobiography i have begun to dislike the man even further.(may his soul rest in peace).

I have never read an autobiography where in which intimate details have been detailed. I also wonder why most of his correspondence had to be published. He had also been a man of contradictions.

As to the title, been working on a paper with my prof on the title Gandhi and abolition of War and so far if i have to take the literal meaning of it, i haven't been able to come up with anything.
He supported the British against the Boers.(Loyalty to the rulers was his reasoning)
again in the Zulu rebellion, he was with the British. Even though he did not fight the war , he had been instrumental in gathering up the ambulance corps.
For all his talk about Ahimsa and satyagraha, i always wonder why he never came strongly against war. Maybe i am ignorant.
and what on earth he did think he could achieve by coining the name 'harijans'
and why Nehru

My list of grievances against him is endless...
and again i wonder why he should even bother me.

Intellectual Arrogance

2008-03-12T09:55:00.000-07:00

Wonder why these morons think they know all best....
F*****g idiots......

Bye Bye Friend

2008-02-13T09:13:00.000-08:00

This post is for you Vinu....
you left us with the hope that someday we might get to see you
i hope i will...

i pray for your safety and of the million others...
I hope u are well and stay the same for years to come

Bye Bye Friend

chennai's own carnival

2008-01-17T08:35:00.000-08:00

Chennai Sangamam

A wonderful event showcasing the performing arts of tamilnadu...
This is a refreshing change as tamilnadu has become synonymous with bharatanatyam and carnatic music... The event brings out the arts forms from various parts of Tamilnadu... A must watch to get the real feel of rural tamilnadu...As for me this event brings to an end to the brahminical domination of the cultural season and heralds a new beginning for the long forgotten art forms....
The final fireworks display too was amazing...went on for 15 odd minutes....
what was most surprising was the well behaved crowd...which made the event even pleasurable to watch... am not a big fan of kanimozhi but she ought to be lauded for this....Way to go .....

Style trends....whatever

2008-01-06T23:29:00.000-08:00

Am not a person who follows the latest trends in fashion. I don't try to follow anyone too... nor am i a keen observer of fashion.managed to save myself from ridicule so far.but sometimes there comes along sum one who tries to make me pretty n in trend with disastrous results. sams wedding for example.dont want to torture ppl by putting a pic. well all this is in reaction to an advertisement i saw on TV. There is however little or no realtion to the Ad and my ramblings above.

This Ad was for Flying machine jeans.after weeks i somehow bring myself to look at the ad completely to find out the name. Abhishek bachan is the brand ambassador. i pity the company.he sucks. one look at that ad and u wudnt want to buy it.who wears a stole and a hat n tucks in ur shirt.especially when u dont have a butt to boot. this guy really sucks when it comes to fashion.same guy wears a hair band.yuck.YUCk YUCk YUCk. and why does it seem to me that the husband n wife duo kinda endorse almost every product. I forgot to add bachan Sr, i know am exaggerating here.but... i dont think i can stand that ad once more....

am jus depressed...

2007-12-28T04:15:00.000-08:00

We live today on a doomed planet in the throes of 'decay', in the grip of undemocratic 'control-freaks', whether these are corporate, bureaucratic or political in nature - everywhere we look there are people obsessed with controlling us, with 'rules' and 'restrictions' and ever more 'laws', so many in fact that nobody can possibly understand (or even read) all of them, and all are issued by incompetent people who think 'they' know, better than us, how 'we' should or must be forced to behave - based, usually, upon nothing more than their ignorance and arrogance !

Religion is the impotence of the human mind to deal with occurrences it cannot understand-Marx

2007-12-28T03:56:00.000-08:00

Its Christmas Time......Yoooooohooooooooooo

2007-12-19T04:58:00.000-08:00

A very misleading title. We never celebrated christmas. Yes there were clothes, CAKE for samuel...and the going to church part.other than that christmas never appealed to me.

Growing up i was amused to see people in my church(normally the church is in full attendance during festivals) decked up in all their finery(at 4 in the morning).
Right now i just hate going to church. Not that my faith has diminished but i have always been against establishment and institutions.The church represents this and more.

More later

am tired n sleepy....

What a Day

2007-11-07T10:12:00.000-08:00

Today was one of the days when i felt happy to be alive
Happy to be walking by the beach taking in all the sights, smells...
too happy that i missed the bus stop
well walked back still happy
walked over the bridge i always wanted to....
still happy...
then it came.. the slight throbbing in the head
the gnawing pain in the head
a forbearer of things to come...
well yea am being melodramatic
guess thats me...
came back home... stuffed myself cheese cake...prawns...chicken...what was i thinking
my squirrels run all over the house...am shit scared id step on them...well i did not...i us squash it.stupid thing had to sit on top of the door that i bang....
i feel lousy
just cant shake it off
am depressed
GOD HELP ME

and being tailed by a car at night is scary...
these desperate men why cant they just come and talk to you and save everyone a lotta trouble...

one of my fav sonnets...

2007-11-04T23:06:00.001-08:00

The expense of spirit in a waste of shame
Is lust in action: and till action, lust
Is perjured, murderous, bloody, full of blame,
Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust;
Enjoyed no sooner but despised straight;
Past reason hunted; and no sooner had,
Past reason hated, as a swallowed bait,
On purpose laid to make the taker mad.
Mad in pursuit and in possession so;
Had, having, and in quest to have extreme;
A bliss in proof, and proved, a very woe;
Before, a joy proposed; behind a dream.
All this the world well knows; yet none knows well
To shun the heaven that leads men to this hell.

To CATCH a bus...

2007-10-31T05:45:00.001-07:00

To catch a bus
i go on one of the most thrilling rides ever...
never imagined id come close to dying thrice on the same night
Thanx to pilli...

well the story goes thus
my uncle kinda loses his bags in a bus and i am supposed to stop the bus half way thru and retrive it
well...
to start with none of us were sure if the bags would still be there in the bus
stopping a bus and getting into it to look for bags in kathibara (not sure how its spelt) is next to impossible
so i stand there braving the rain. mosquitoes, the killer traffic
so i stand
and i stand
i stand
i wait
walk around
run
try to get into any bus that could've crossed kanchipuram

and after all the trouble i go thru i get a call
my uncle has caught the bus. He had apparently chased it in a Taxi and spent 1500 bucks doing so (OUCH).
All for 4 coconuts , some tamarind, chilli powder....

My family rocks...
Who can forget the numerous trips ive made between appar n vaigai street to deliver these essentials.
Appar n vaigai st r 100 mts apart with 2-3 shops inbetween selling all the above mentiones items...and still i walk...

My family def rocks.

Elliots beach is a mess...

2007-10-28T22:55:00.000-07:00

The Shore is littered with pills...
yea pills....spirulina pills ... thousands of pills washed ashore
there were packets of "rasna"too

my guess is they were probably dumped in the adyar river-the pills wer past the expiry date... so were the rasna packets...

sad to c the beach littered thus.

been raining non-stop for almost 24 hrs now

2007-10-28T04:23:00.000-07:00

parts of the city are already getting flooded...
hope this year does not become a repeat of the 2005 flooding of chennai...

DO UNTO OTHERS WHAT THEY DO TO YOU

2007-10-23T09:14:00.000-07:00

forgive n forget does me no good

IT RAINS, I CLICK, I UPLOAD, I SHOW, AM HAPPY

2007-10-23T05:55:00.001-07:00

In Between i keep reminding my self i need to work on my phd topic

2007-10-23T05:50:00.001-07:00

Yea my topic
have come up with something

since my new topic is different from what i had planned to do earlier (it involves a different country and a different view) i have started reading new material.

A little knowledge is too dangerous(applies perfectly)
So is a lot (never had it)
well.... now am reading.....
GOOD for me....

my mind's working overtime, the creative juices pour out....

2007-10-23T05:45:00.000-07:00

all this because manmathan tells me the plot for his movie and asks me for suggestions

and suddenly everything i see seems to inspire me
my imagination is on an overdrive
i call him up a hundred times
each time with a new twist to HIS story

i pity him
poor guy
very soon
he might
no
he will
forget his
original story

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
The devil is at work
and enjoying every moment of it....

HAHAHAHAH

search results for samuel sathya

2007-10-20T06:41:00.000-07:00

This is what i got when googled sammy's name.....

http://www.sathyabamauniv.ac.in/eee/ALUMINI.htm - sam's name on his college website.
http://regula.blogspot.com/2005/03/worship-101.html - sam's comments on a blog.
http://web.umr.edu/~india/events.html -sam winning a quiz competition.

and i lose interest
mayb coz there r more results for saibaba and one sam sathya....
proud of u bro...

saw this movie... A GOOD WOMAN

2007-10-17T09:47:00.000-07:00

and this is what i remember from the movie

goes something like this...

Being married is like living in a room and looking out of a window
only there is no window
The room keeps getting smaller
only you don't realize it

It keeps getting smaller
smaller by inches

You don't realize until it gets too small that u cant move....

guess it applies to relationships as well...

It wasn't a great/good movie... but the dialogues were wonderful...

A whole week goes by and no pictures......

2007-10-17T09:46:00.000-07:00

sumthings really wrong....

wallow in self pity

2007-10-15T07:14:00.000-07:00

enjoy it
embrace it

forget it....

Religious shitheads,holier than thou attitude and a whole lotta crap.....

2007-10-13T20:00:00.000-07:00

One of the Often quoted phrases from the"Born Again " CHRISTIANS is that "God has spoken to me", "Do you have his spirit in you?

God here apparently speaks to them what they want to hear.
One of God's commandments to them probably goes thus

Practice not what thy preach

It irritates me no end to see n hear them taking a moral stance and telling us the DEVILS CHILDREN what we ought to do....
These pretentious , sanctimonious assholes...

MAY GOD SAVE THEM....

trial

2007-10-12T10:32:00.000-07:00

my first video on youtube....

2007-10-10T22:29:00.000-07:00

BOURNE ULTIMATUM

2007-10-09T07:31:00.000-07:00

FAST, SLICK
one of the few movies i wouldn't mind watching again....
and matt damon looks great.....

the popcorn was bad....
dint enjoy the pepsi tooo
hotdog was terrible

sometimes i wonder if i go there to eat or to watch a movie.....

SCARY....

2007-10-05T12:34:00.000-07:00

My obsession for posing has not gone down

ahahahahahhahhahahahaah

Cognitive dissonance-thats what am going thru now....

2007-10-03T11:44:00.001-07:00

and NO i don't want to elaborate....

what others think of flatman ooops friedman.

2007-10-03T11:29:00.000-07:00

Boy I tell ya. Times sure have changed. I have read that in history, many advisors to countries that where this incompetent and wrong as Friedman where either thrown out or sent to the front lines. Some where even beheaded by the ruler that listened to them. George Bush on the other hand likes to promote these people. The more incomptent and wrong they are the more Bush likes them.

oh wait, shhhhh, everyone be quiet, thomas FRIEDMAN, the smartest man on the planet, is going to speak….

/snark off

but, seriously folks, this douchebag must be ridiculed at every possile moment. friedman has been proven wrong almost as much as paul wolfotwits.

and the fact that people read ‘the earth is flat’ and take it seriously still astonishes me. the man is never right, believes his own bullshit (to a scary degree), and still is treated like some sort of svengali… i think i am going to go pull my hair out one by one.

FU indeed tom, FU indeed.

something i totally agree with....

Why is it so easy for these macho clowns to differentiate between countries and their own neighborhoods? Could not this same argument be used to go door-to-door in LA, killing and terrorizing everyone because you were car-jacked six-blocks away? Might as well take all their possessions and burn down the house too – just to show’em who’s boss. “What part of this do you not understand, ‘I was car-jacked!’”

It doesn’t matter that they’re in a different country; the people in those neighborhoods DIDN’T FUCKING DO IT! And remember, we we’re there to PROTECT them and RESCUE them from Sadaam and his WMDs – not TEACH THEM A LESSON.

This bellicose beat’em up mentality works only as long as it’s not YOUR house they’re breaking into. But that’s what bullies do; they beat up the little guy because they’re so fearful themselves.

friedman sucks.....

2007-10-03T11:11:00.000-07:00

i read this title "the world is flat" and i think to myself that cant be.but i go ahead buy the book and start reading...n try convincing myself that there could be a possibility.100, 200, 300 400 odd pages and i still don't get it. How could the world be flat?
and i hear its a best seller...
http://www.nypress.com/18/16/news&columns/taibbi.cfm
good review and it pretty much sums up what i felt about the book
as sam says ... "America is run by intellectual buffoons..." cant agree with him more....

roy says this....

2007-10-03T08:45:00.000-07:00

Compulsory draft for India?

Well, me thinks this is a very good idea. India is one of the few developing/developed countries in the world which does not have its citizens to compulsorily serve in the army at one point in their lives. I really believe that this will teach a lot of values to our people and make them learn discipline both mental and physical!. Also think that it will teach them to stop cribbing and crying for all the governments faults and help out more to make this country a better place. Your thoughts?

my response?
what the???????????

http://samuelselvan.squarespace.com/journal/science-proves-me-right-its-not-willpower-i-lack-but-fuel.html

2007-10-03T08:23:00.000-07:00

i never beleived id agree with him...or think in these lines....
that was me a coupla years ago.....
this is me now......
hmnn....sigh......

what will happen to belgium?

2007-10-03T07:58:00.000-07:00

flemish?
waloons?
germans?

whats with the french?
they happen to do it everywhere....
not that they alone r responsible.... but....

welll.... strange ....
reminds me of one of the colonies.....

Democracy don't rule the world, You'd better get that in your head; This world is ruled by violence, But I guess that's better left unsaid.

2007-10-03T07:46:00.000-07:00

aren't the democracies of the world proof enough?????

Out in the sea, with a scary talkative loud moron...

2007-09-17T11:42:00.001-07:00

the ride was great? intercepted with a loud 'i can talk till i die' boatman, who insisted on knowing our life history....,insisted on being photographed..., insisted on staying in the sea if i dint comply...
what we" found out "about ourselves...
We cant speak Tamil....
we were speaking a non-anglicized version the whole damn time....
We are Srilankans...
He was so happy when we said "yes we are"
We are the boatman's sisters...
Thats coz we wer 'married'....
We are "Excellent figures"
Somehow it unnerves you when someone says it to your face...
Finally...
after all the torture we endured we pay him...and he's happy coz he gave us what "he promised".... A damn good time"
finally again...
we did have a great time...if only i can get that moron outta my mind....

O.J Simpson arrested again...will he go to jail this time?

2007-09-17T11:28:00.000-07:00

Thirteen years after being charged with the murders of Brown Simpson and Goldman, Simpson was arrested sunday(16,sept )on two counts of robbery with a deadly weapon, two counts of burglary with a firearm, assault with a deadly weapon and conspiracy to commit burglary.

Sethu samudram project.....

2007-09-14T00:03:00.000-07:00

One of the looong pending, controversial project that never seems to take off...

People for the project tell us that it has the potential to bring us economic gain... shorten the distance the ships have to sail, don't forget the military advantage??? etc....

but...

do we stop to think of the environmental damage that this whole project could bring about?does anyone ascertain whether in constructing the canal there would be any geological, oceanographic and environmental changes, as well as any land subsidence.

Again those who are against the project ( a majority at least from what ive seen) bring up religion to stop the project.
Am at a loss to understand why religion shud ever be a part of it.
Religion again...what good does it do to people except give them a reason to hate... jus realised that any religion cannot survive on its own...needs an enemy ...be it another religion, another race...the list goes on...need to write on this another time....

coming back to the project...its an expensive project that needs constant dredging... and with dubious claims...promoted by politicians with short sight or shud i say with their sights on money...a project that shouldn't be allowed ....

from my visit to the region this is what i have to say....

LEAVE THE PLACE ALONE
ITS BEAUTIFUL...SERENE

SAY NO TO THE PROJECT....

The dreaded day finally arrives...

2007-09-13T23:36:00.000-07:00

Hmmnn......hmn.......hmn...hm....hmnn....

This very much sums up my vocabulary for the day.....

i was... as usual poked....prodded.... and finally no...... shoook violently and yea finally.... pulled....

Ive lost my wisdom tooth......

after effects.... loss of wisdom.....(eheheheh like i ever had any....)

so i come out of the dentist's .... with a funny looking face..thanx to the poke....my face feels funny and looks funny coz of that.....
and am instructed not to talk(so i cant tell anyone the torture i endured , u c after a while the experience doesn't stay fresh....)

i come out to see my car wedged between motorcycles and strong me tries very successfully to move it a few mm's till a good Samaritan helps me out.... and i cant thank him...but i guess he knew thanx to my funny face.....

My woes continue.....

and yea
as disgusting as it is....
am drinking bloood

yuck wyack eeeeeeeeewahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

IDEALIST

2007-09-12T22:09:00.000-07:00

I WAS one...

CYNIC

I WAS one...

AND NOW

am an IDEAL CYNIC.....

to the dentist AGAIN......

2007-09-12T21:53:00.001-07:00

my trips to the dentist have started again albeit a little late...
Its been a little over a year since my last visit and i guess my teeth tot they'd show me who's boss?
This time i had to be poked just to get the pain down...the numerous tablets failed to help... am waiting now...eagerly... to see the dentist..

Incredible India-do whatever wherever

2007-09-01T03:57:00.000-07:00

came up wid this on my bombay trip...

and something on globalization too...been obsessed with it ever since i decided to work on it...

I write about globalization with a reynolds pen, write what comes to me on a napkin from KFC, taking pictures with a canon, wearing a pepe jeans and a lee t-shirt, writing n thinking in a language thats alien to me...

thats globalization for me
am a perpetrator, am an agent...

I would rather live my life as if there is a God and die to find out there isn't, than live my life as if there isn't and die to find out there is.

2007-08-07T21:12:00.000-07:00

Conservative Satanic Agenda for Bush

2007-08-07T20:45:00.000-07:00

Salutations and warm regards!
We at the Conservative Satanic Agenda (CSA) believethat in these frightening and confusing times, it isvitally important to put aside our individualdifferences and SUPPORT OUR LEADERS. Now more thanever, we need leaders in Washington who will standfirm in defense of our national interests, both hereand abroad.
The Bush Administration has stood for America througha horrifying crisis and potentially endless war, andwe as a nation must continue to support the strengththat our leaders have come to represent, so that wemay remain the most powerful nation on earth. We atCSA are of the highest hope that you will consider thetimely importance of standing behind strong leadershipwhen going to the polls this fall.
Thank you for your consideration.
For more information on the CSA, see below.The Nine Satanic Statements
By Anton Szandor LaVey [i]
1. Satan represents indulgence, instead of abstinence!
By bowing out of the Kyoto treaty and refusing todiscuss global climate change, President Bush hasinsured that American industries will continue toprosper.
2. Satan represents vital existence, instead ofspiritual pipe dreams!
. Now more than ever, citizens of the modern worldrequire prosperity and growth to meet the challengesof the coming era, and we believe that amongpoliticians, the Bush Administration is uniquely intouch with this reality.
3. Satan represents undefiled wisdom, instead ofhypocritical self-deceit!
We at CSA wholeheartedly endorse Defense SecretaryDonald Rumsfeld’s recent statements to the effect thatit’s not important whether the world approves of ourimpending strikes against Iraq; it is only importantthat we do what we know to be right.
4. Satan represents kindness to those who deserve it,instead of love wasted on ingrates!
The Bush Administration has consistently andintelligently linked aid to third world countries todevelopment, and backed away from wasting resources ondead-end welfare programs.
5. Satan represents vengeance, instead of turning theother cheek!
We call your attention to The Administration’smasterful retaliation against Al-Queda and theirsympathizers after 9/11.
6. Satan represents responsibility to the responsible,instead of concern for vampires!
Civilization as we know it runs on energy. It is veryimportant that our energy sources remain secure andintact. President Bush lives with the burden of thisawesome responsibility every day.
7. Satan represents man as just another animal,sometimes better, more often worse than those who walkon all fours, who, because of his “divine spiritualand intellectual development”, has become the mostvicious animal of all!---- "These are the kind that go to a cave and sendyoungsters to their suicidal death. That's the kind ofpeople we're fighting. But there's no cave deep enoughfor America, or dark enough to hide." George W. Bush,Oklahoma City, Oklahoma, Aug. 29, 2002
8. Satan represents all of the so-called sins, as theyall lead to physical, mental, or emotionalgratification!
While it may not be politically expedient to discusswhat George W. did prior to becoming Governer ofTexas, we would like to simply say that this man mostcertainly has our confidence.
9. Satan has been the best friend the church has everhad, as He has kept it in business all these years!
CSA strongly supports President Bush’s faith-basedsocial programs.

http://www.godlessgeeks.com/LINKS/CSAforBush.htm

The Trip

2007-06-13T06:47:00.000-07:00

Koyambedu-spent hours deciding on where to go and how to go.... took abt a 100 pics of the total 3000 we finally managed....
Rameswaram- a bumpy bus ride for 13 hrs...., great beaches, snorkelling, riding on top of vans, a bathroom 2 feet wide..., stinking of fish.....1000 odd pics
Ramanathapuram- after a walk in the middle of the night from rameswaram, we finally manage a bus to rmanathapuram, trying top sleep on the platform, onto a bus to madurai
Madurai- go to a restaurant, use the loo, have nothing to eat or drink in the hotel after a wait of abt half n hour, on a bus to kodai
Kodaikannal- slept on the ride up, took up a cottage in the middle of nowhere, lotsa trekking, nammy's cooking experiments, backy, and finally the trek down the hill n forest, meeting villagers, eating in their house, bitter coffee, bison droppings... , pain, crying, desperation, awesome, finally reach kumbakarai in the dark with no lights 500 pics
kumbakkarai-stay in the pwd guest house, eat paatti cooked food, go to the falls...., have fun, backy falls, leave backy behind, feel miserable, drive an auto, take more pics....
periyakulam-take a bus to madurai
madurai- go to the temple, get into trouble with the cops over deepa's shorts, good food
take a lousy long ride bak to madras
Koyambedu- get bak home with swollen feet n limping

no regrets n lotsa fun....

took a test after almost a year

2007-04-29T06:31:00.000-07:00

went pretty bad....
realized how important it is to keep writing...
how was i supposed to know ethnicity is a primordial identity?

may i shud know......

looked so stoooopid................

my love affair with food continues....

2007-04-21T09:44:00.000-07:00

IT RAINED IT RAINED IT RAINED

2007-04-14T09:52:00.000-07:00

IT RAINED IN CHENNAI N WOW........................................

WORK

2007-04-06T18:39:00.000-07:00

Created a record of sorts by completing a lil over than one and a half months at work.mayb coz i knew i was gonna be her for jus 3 months.whatever....
its the most tiring monotonous boring work ever...
hate it....
but stiking to it....
well.... 8 days in to work
i get a raise from 492 a day i jump to 593 ... pretty good considering the fact that am still officially a student....(eheeheh)
i hope at least one of my plans work and i get out of home and this country for good....

I WEIGH 60 KGS AND AM DEPRESSED

2007-04-01T06:31:00.000-07:00

This from someone who dint have a weight problem for 22 yrs...

smiley face

2007-03-02T09:30:00.000-08:00

antha velaiya tala teriyuthe aduva?- this was to describe yahoo messenger when not signed in

antha sirikara moonji illa athuthan- this was to confirm

I cannot be able to...

2007-02-15T04:29:00.001-08:00

i cant be able to...

ANOTHER WASTED DAY.....

2007-02-06T08:05:00.000-08:00

I bemoan the lack of rights a student has in choosing her thesis topic.

2007-02-01T05:11:00.000-08:00

DAMN
AT this stage in my life, i shud be working on whatever i want to...
i really fervently wish there are more people like prof.manivannan

If only i could tell people what i think about them;if i could only stop being nice;if only i dint have to have so many restrictions;id be a much bett

2007-01-30T17:53:00.000-08:00

er person and so much nicer to myself.

Htred

2007-01-30T11:07:00.000-08:00

There is so much hatred within me that it scares me...

Indian Ocean- good music

2007-01-22T07:03:00.000-08:00

Surprisingly i like black eyed peas too...

<<<< I HATE WEDDINGS >>>>

2007-01-09T03:47:00.000-08:00